My beautiful Mum passed away at 12.55am today one year ago. I cannot believe it has been a year already, more importantly it does not feel like it. I still cannot believe that she is gone & still do not feel like it has even sunk in. I still expect her many daily calls, i still expect to see her every day & i still expect to be spending Christmas day with her.
The only comfort i have is knowing that she is no longer suffering the years of pain that she had. I am also relieved that the whole passing experience of my Mum was made easier with the wonderful care of St.Wilfred's Hospice, all of the family & friends that we had around us.
We always promised Mum that she would never be alone & in no pain in her final days, i hope & pray that we fulfilled this for her.
Today me, Martin, Dad & Carolyn spent the day together. We took a Christmas tree that has been potted in our garden over to her memorial in Dad's garden & we each decorated the tree. We made a decorated tag & added words for Mum & placed it on the top of the tree. We had a good cry, and a good laugh at some of our wonderful memories of our Mum.
We went off for the day & went to the shops, had lunch & shopped for pressies, something we all used to do together.
I would like to thank all of our wonderful friends for their kind words of support, without them i think that life would be much harder. I was given this beautiful poem by one of my Mum's dear friends as she felt that it would help me & my family & our grief. It makes me feel happy that my Mum is in such a wonderful place and one day we will join her there
Thankyou for listening xxx